choco-top

hm.. what a sight of 4 beautiful charming girls savouring their choco-top ice cream sitting on the shopping mall floor next to an escalator means to you? hehi.. pretty pathetic, right?

tapi..live life to its fullest folks.. doing this.. and we managed to learn something in life.. the art of a loving mother cooing her very own 3 years old who is crying and throwing a tantrum just few steps after they passed us.. hmm i wonder what trigger the drama anyway...>:).. this young mother with a patience of an angel.. quietly hug her 3yrs old.. soothing him with quiet soothing words i guess.. and there.. 5 minutes later.. the boy was all smiling.. no ice cream needed.. no extended version of gimme...gimme...gimmme.. drama to be watched..

made us wonder.. what kind of mama will us be later in life.. hmm... it's still a long journey for us.. though 1 of us is already in our 3rd pregnancy.. 1 is on the way.. 1 is a "half" mother.. and another 1 is a proud auntie to a bunch of hyperactive kiddos.. ntah.. go figure girls..

alibi

selalu orang tak faham.. kenapa sy begitu mengambil berat pasal alibi... hmm.. kenapa ye sy begitu pentingkan alibi.. maybe..

when i just a small kid.. i watched a missing person scene turned bad.. the missing person was someone near to me.. earlier in his life he met with an accident.. he stand no chance if he had another head concussion..

one day he was missing... everyone was on edge.. looking for him.. due to his earlier head injury, he would experience momentary memory loss.. it was a frantic search..

after 2 days looking.. the worse became worst.. police called us at home.. asking one of his next of kin to identify the body.. it was him..

his body was found laying in a drain.. after the post-mortem.. doctor concluded that, he slipped and hit his head again..

hmm.. maybe i was traumatised.. i don't know hmm.. ntah... hopefully everyone around me can understand..

elderly

born on the 4th july.. haha.. not me.. was born in june.. my 29th june was the most chaotic month of my life.. chaotic... disastrous.. hmm.. thank god.. june is over..

Aug.. many things happend in Aug 2008.. 23 aug... the last time i met my grandma - alive.. i was preparing to go for PTD exam that weekend.. arrived in jb at 10.30pm.. after dinner with a lelaki.. i went back to my ucu's place.. atuk, ucu and adam was lying in bed.. watching a malay soap opera.. was a funny movie... atuk was laughing..

before i went to bed.. atuk told me, "baju yang yan bagi atuk aritu dah siap. tak tau la atuk sempat pakai tak maser ko kawin.."

".. takper. nanti yan belikan tudung.."

i went to sleep. on 23 aug.. i woke up late.. while rushing preparing.. i heard atuk busying herself in the kitchen.. she made me a glass of tea.. she took the effort to cool it for me so that i dont have to wait.. it was the last drink she prepared for me.. i am glad i took the time to finish it..

after the exam, i went back home and continue with my life.. on Thursday.. i took sometime to shop for a tudung.. i chose a cream colour tudung to match atuk's new green baju kurung.. but she never get the chance to wear it.. she left us that saturday.. a day before the holy month of ramadhan..

i can't keep her out of my mind.. she was always there...

"yan cakapla dgn ***, cepat2. atuk hajat bila yan kawin nanti, atuk nak bagi yan satu kain songket..".. she gave it to me before i got married instead..hmm.. maybe she knew, she'll be leaving us soon..

"..yan suka makan kerak dodol.." this happened when i was 5 or 6 years old... but even long after that, she still keep some of the kerak dodol everytime she made it... ibu never understood the reason for this... but luckily i still remember..

it's almost a year since she left us..why do i still feel guilty over her death... hmm ntah..sorry for hiding the truth i guess..

pokok baru

hhmmm.. manusia mmg suka nak membantu.. tp manusia sendiri yang suka sgt nak berselindung ..mengelak diri dari dibantu.. ego? secretive?

2days ago i went somewhere... 400 km, 5 hours drive and rm100 - to and from..this is the amount i have to pay to learn this lesson.. nothing big.. just a small gesture that manage to catch my attention - i'd told you it is really easy to get me..

i was in tesco... wandering aimlessly.. and there i saw my new hope.. i always refer pokok2 kecil nih as a "new hope".. green.. anxious.. eager to survive.. i carried my new hope as if my life is depending on it..

while queuing at the counter.. i met my new teacher..

aiya amoi..nexttime don't buy this flower la.. this one you can easily get from the tepi jalan.. you just petik (sambil membuat aksi memetik pokok)..

alamak uncle.. cannot.. that is uncivilised..

ok ..ok..

bla bla.bla..

he gave me all sort of advice to make sure my new hope survive. at first, i was hesitant to listen.. but then.. i have nothing to lose.. then it was his turn to pay his stuff... a full load of trolley.. he waived at me and asked me to pay 1st.. which i'mm very grateful since i have another 200km to drive before i reach home..

hmm.. during this 2.5 hours drive.. i thought.. there are so many good ppl around us.. are we one of the good ones.. or we're in the minority? hmm.. ntah.. hopefully i will not gained another enemy in my life..